Denial - Weight Gain

Ok, I have the gushy stuff out of my system so let’s get on to what this blog is all about, the business of getting older.

One of the things I think rings true with most of the women I meet is denial. It seem someone is always denying something. Let me know if you can relate to any of the things I have been in denial about. They aren’t in any particular order as I am not sure of exactly when any of these things hit me. I could go on and on about these revelations so I will try and explain them one at a time.

Weight Gain – This one took me pretty hard. Not so much gaining the weight as buying new clothes. The one thing I couldn’t bring myself to do was buy new clothes that were the right size. It took a long time to realize that when you buy the right size shoe your feet don’t hurt. What a comfortable revelation that was. As we get older our bodies change. Feet grow, butts grow and even boobs grow.

Yes I said boobs. I seem to grow a cup size every decade. I remember when I was happy to finally fill in a B cup. Now I believe I am a D cup but just getting into my head I should buy that size. Spilling out of the C cup is starting to get old so I will have to wise up and learn that if I buy the right bra size I will be a lot more comfortable.

For a long time (a couple of decades) I was a size 10. Never was a skinny woman. However, I would only buy a size 10 because I was going to lose the few pounds it would take me to actually wear my new clothes.  Needless to say there were a lot of clothes with the tags left on them for years. Once I had nothing to wear I finally gave in and started buying size 12. Of course by that time I was really a 14 but I would only buy 12s because I would lose the few pounds I needed to lose so I could fit into my beautiful new clothes.

I finally wised up and started to purchase loose fitting outfits and if I was in a sexy mood I would buy clothes with stretchy fabrics. I am sure you find some of this familiar.

Was I in denial about losing the weight or my size? Probably both. Definitely about losing the weight as I changed nothing. Love my wine and martinis. Do I need to mention the calories in them? Love good food. You get my drift. HATE to exercise. With all of that going for me losing weight was an impossibility. Again, denial. I was somehow hoping the weight would somehow mysteriously disappear. Maybe I could just will it away. I am sure you know the ending to that story.

Well, I have started to exercise. I found all kinds of activities to become involved in and it seems to work for me. Still have not lost weight but sure it will happen eventually. It’s just hard to give up the wine.  Working on it. I have toned up quite a bit and seeing some improvement is helping me to stay motivated.

Still a tight 12 and still refuse to by a 14.

Next denial – the kind of clothes I buy. Til then.

You stay Kute.